you just haven’t met me yet

It’s been a while. I barely remember my password for this wordpress account. So, a few days ago was my birthday. I’m twenty one. Already. I can’t believe I’m that old now. My parents got married at this age. Hohohoho. They were so so so much more matured at this age compared to me. During her final year in the university, my mum walked around with the heavy me breakdancing in her stomach. Ohoh I complained like granny when I had to bring heavy books to class. Can you see the big difference? She had and will always have the strong will to take care of our family with all her heart. Mama, she’s beautiful inside out. She’s all I wanted to be. She’s great. I’m not even close to any of her loveliness. I’m still a kid! I can’t even wake myself up early every morning, my mum still washes my clothes, I need friends most of the time and sumtimes I can’t even defend myself in some situations. I’m should be 5 according to my behavior, but time makes me old day by day. I just have to endure it. Hohoho.

Happy Birthday Ayuni.

skater boy

“too bad that you couldn’t see, see the man that boy could be. see you later boy!“

mae – the ocean

Am I alone in this?
Never a night where I can sleep myself till day.
We must try to figure it out, figure it out.
It won’t be that easy,
We lost it somehow.

You come over unannounced.
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight
Just like the ocean needs the waves.

Oh, the night becomes the space
That’s somewhere in between
What I feel and what I’m told
Sitting on the shoreline
Trying to figure it out. figure it out…
To find out the meaning
And reach it somehow.

You come over unannounced.
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight
Just like the ocean needs the waves.
Fall around me now
Like stars that shine and brighten the way.
I need you here tonight
Just like this night it needs the rain.

The season has changed.
The wind it blows colder now, colder now.
The clouds are raised.
The rain it falls harder now, all around.

You come over unannounced
(will you come over now?).
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight
Just like the ocean needs the waves
(I need you here tonight just like the waves).

Fall around me now (so fall around me now)
Like stars that shine and brighten the way.
I need you here tonight
Just like this night it needs the rain
(I need you here tonight just like the rain).

Over unannounced (will you come over now?).
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight
Just like the ocean needs the waves
(I need you here tonight just like the waves).

Just like the stars that fall around me now.

wikipedia

Anger is an emotion.

The physical effects of anger include increased heart rate, blood pressure,

and levels of adrenaline and noradrenaline.

Some view anger as part of the fight or flight brain response

to the perceived threat of harm.

Anger becomes the predominant feeling behaviorally, cognitively,

and physiologically when a person makes the conscious choice

to take action to immediately stop the threatening behavior

of another outside force.

OH, I AM ANGRY THEN. I SEE..

listen to Sheikh Said Saad Al Ghamidi – Surah Al Baqarah

hulllaaabalooooo

dear makhluk halus,

“what has gotten into you? tell me. i nearly cannot recall your good deeds. please make me understand!”

a monkey attack

It was in the evening. I was tidying up my tudung in front of the mirror when this unexpected scene occurred. As far as I can remember, I turned my laptop off and started dolling up myself as my room mates planned to go somewhere to get some fresh air. You know, it was boring to sit in the room all day. I was staring myself in the mirror when my ears suddenly heard something scratching at the window. Moments later, that scratching sound turned into knocking. I was effing terrified and shocked when a beruk unveiled itself from the window’s curtain. My jaw dropped. But it dropped not for too long. I screamed AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! very loud. So loud that farisa’s lips turned BLUE when she heard it. Very da bomb. Haha. I think her lips’ blood vessels might literally burst out of fright (then it should be RED in color, right? never mind). I ran into farisa’s compartment and babbled every words i wanted to say as fast as possible. Farisa held a mop stick and she as well screamed to my face “kita guna ni! kita guna ni!”

HAHAHAHA. It was very funny though. BAD BERUK!

the best part : The bloody monkey backed out from the window when it heard me yelling. I like it. So who’s bad huh, beruk?

listen to We The Kings – Heaven Can Wait

live like we’re dying

–> activity of triggering the network of neurons in my brain to forget that so-called beautiful memories by deleting any means of datas related.

it surprisingly worked! oh, i’m so relieved. bhahahaha

i’m starting something new. something fresh!

listen to Lady Gaga – Bad Romance [best best]

ignorance – paramore

” i’m not the same kid from your memory
well now i can fend for myself “

fening fening lalat

“penat lah pikir orang punya pandangan kat kite. buat taktau je boleh? saye manusia, tolooonglah faham saye jugak kadang kadang”

- edisi Twitter